I have to admit last night was one of the few times my mind has drifted back to thinking of food as comfort. Yes, the temptation would be a ligit food for me- but I'd already had my day's quota. I knew Penny hadn't been acting like herself-but I thought that it was because the weather has prevented her from being outside. Then I saw she was scared to jump up on step up to couch. So I lifted her up- or rather my hubby did( I hurt my rib earlier)Then I did lift her down and for the first few steps she was dragging her legs. Very Scary for a Doxie owner. My first thought was "Please God I can't loose Penny-not now! My 2nd thought was " Gosh, I sure would like to make up some of those "legal" buttermilk pancakes right now."
I tried tapping- but the fear kept coming up-and finally ended in tears. I'm not sure how far tapping goes when it concerns someone you fear loosing . Instead we went on to bed where I cuddled Penny, gave her Reiki and said The Long Healing Prayer( It takes me 15 minutes to say it) for both Myself and Penny. I also turned on my aromatherapy mister next to us that already had Ylang Ylang in it. A very mellowing essential oil.
My son came and got Penny today and long story short I feel way better about her prognosis today and am glad I turned to God instead of food to get me thru an emotional crisis.