This quote has probably been used here before, but it is exactly where I am today. Emotionally I was in limbo over something major in my life that I have no control over. I haven't talked here about it because it involves other family members. No, it has nothing to do with my side of the family or my kids, grand kids, but does impact my life and their lives in a major way. Then, on Feb 1st I received information that shattered all my dreams-everything on my "vision" board. Everything I thought I was losing for to start with-yet not really I realized today. My incentive so to speak- what I've been calling my Big Picture Intention. So, You know how I'll say "or even better" at the end of my intentions & asking prayers? I'm waiting to find out what that "even better" is right now. All this actually involves the question of both where and how we will live-lots of big trust and safety issues come into play.
The above paragraph was written on Feb 17th I see. Today is March 2nd- obviously I never made it back here. I hate to admit that for the first time since 9/9/14 I've regained some weight. But I just got through tapping thru Carol Soloman's CD and am feeling a bit better. This past week I've made thru with the help of Jon Gabriel's support group. I can't thank them enough for all the outpouring of love and energy.
I had another emotional blow (really along financial safety lines) a week ago today- Hard to believe a person could gain that much in one week ( and no I'm not saying how much-I will after I've lost it again). It's like my body was trying to get back that safety net of fat now that it knows there is no more savings or even jobs for that matter. No more financial trust of the one person I thought I could trust.
But I can and choose to believe that God will provide. Today is the first day of Baha'i fast 2016 for me. Somehow I just know that this 19 days will be a positive turning point for me. I'll link you to my Baha'i fast blog shortly if you want to know what I'm talking about. But, just so you know-diet wise- You only "fast" from sun up to sun down for spiritual reasons.
I choose to look at how far I've come from last years fast ( the first in 19 yrs I made it all the way thru). The weather is beautiful today and we are about to take Penny to the park to celebrate her 10th birthday on her favorite trail. Once home, I'll play in my garden. I have all I need for a salad and fruit snack tonight. One day at a time. Here is the link: for some reason link refuses to fit this space -so just go to Gingers Flower Garden and it's under My Baha'i Faith. Not going down the tech maze today.