If I sat with my "demons" so to speak I thought If I wasn't thin then I wasn't happy. But that's just not true. All my pictures showed me that. I was happy with the people, pets, actually many animals, gardens, and God in my life. Now I have hope that not only will I have my joy I'll be able to physically add to my best days. They can all be best days I just have to decide that they are.
Yesterday was my 2nd day on this red color diet. I faced a huge emotional challenge yesterday involving my son. For a while fear reared it's head , but I didn't allow it to reign supreme. It was in the background from 9AM until 6PM, when the answers came. I chose to proceed with my red day as planned diet wise. Did my 2 red meditations , 2 solar waters, wore red, Red mars music-red light 30 min. I kept on even when the black tapped up window covering fell down! Stayed naked under that light just praying no one walked by the window in the next 15 minutes LOL! Yesterday I had grits, udi toast, butter, strawberry spread, a baked cheese potato, hot udi bread with honey on it, pineapple and a handful of plain , pure corn tortilla chips.
I did have lots of cravings, but the tapping really worked with it! I also had my prayer book in hand-using it all day. In the past prayer helped with the fear but not the eating. I've been the OA route to only regain. The Tapping really surprised me. I wasn't able to tap out my tense shoulders but I was able to tap out my cravings. I am determined that all 45 days will be "best" days red wise.