Yes, I forgot to pay attention to the fact that I was very tired before I ate. I was up at dawn, decided to nap before 3PM meal. Then one after another family members woke me up-till I just gave up and decided to go ahead & have lunch to help me "perk Up", after all I'd used my pendulum and worked out exact menu for today- what did it matter if I ate 1 hour earlier?
Why? Why? Why? I asked myself as I finished the cornbread. I'm not hungry, I'm not angry ,( although now as I write this I can see I might have felt frustrated at not getting that nap) not lonely , yes-TIRED! Also I realized I hadn't refilled my neck vial with my grapefruit essential oil either, The worst part? I actually had to get up. get a piece of cornbread from the freezer, and heat it up-I actually stopped, thought about it- and talked myself into believing it was ok to have it.
Before I started beating myself up I tapped it out and decided to write about it here and found this saying on compassion among my quotes. I also refilled my vial. In the past, I'd have had the attitude;" well already failed today might as well eat what I want today- start again the next day." Sound Familiar? Been there , done that. If I want to succeed in reaching and maintaining goal I have to change my course. So,Now I have on my happy music in my favorite room- everyone else is either watching the playoffs or napping themselves, so now I get my cat nap. Namasate